I lost in my feeling, but this is a happy loss.

I lost in my feeling, but this is a happy loss. 

I’m starting to feel that I miss one or two or three things and more in my life as I reach 27. Maybe You, I or We are not sure for what it is going to be. Well it really sounds funny and you may wonder what I’m talking about. Haha, let’s start with simple things, I’ve been through. Beside works, I like to hang out with my best friend, well along the road, I see some beautiful couples with their kids holding each other hands, and I feel like I wanna be like them, I think I need a family now.

Hey but wait, When I see some independent people, they are living alone with their own, I wanna be like this too, and I’m thinking free life with no responsibility over kids or wife is great. It sounds just like I’m in between these two worlds. Ohhhhhhhh that is how I will go crazy, that just the way but for what. and who know if I don’t know.

Once a month, I visit the countryside, haha, I see life with beautiful nature surrounded, Then I’ve got the  feeling I should have been born here again, I would not have known about school, computer, modern world, but farmer or fishery or whatever that I should have lived my life in nature.

Looking at the birds, I wanna be like them again haha, so I can fly, I can go to anywhere that I like and even can see the whole thing from above. They live a short life, but meaningfully, and simple living. Just to find the food, and go home then sleep. Emmm, maybe find their mates and have family haha. Then raise the kids together. WoW, I think that should be enough for them to have a better life.

Well, once again when I’m sitting down for the break time in my class with my student around I see them all having a good time by just simple things such as listening to music, playing game, chatting, gathering together for snack and even joking on each other, OHHH, there the feeling comes again, wanna be like them .

I just don’t know why everything comes in the way that I should not think of, but I already do.

It seems I missed so many things in life, Doesn’t it ?

What about you guys, ever been through this feeling ?